What a crazy ego division it is. It makes me tired, but, it's definitely more productive than former behaviors I did. I won't lie to myself and people around me. Because I know I can lie in verbal but can't change the situation I desired.
March 26th, 2018
11:24PM
It is so strange that as I'm pouring effort to develop myself and doing actually what I supposed to do but I feel somehow desperate. I often become too much emotive so that sometimes I drop tears, thinking 'life is short but it's really an amazing gift. Am I using my opportunity in the right way? No you are late. Shit, you never keep promises you've made by yourself. You need to do more than any other people to impress people. Hey, but why should I have to impress someone? Because it is your natural desire. It is an instinct of human. You can't ignore your gene. Don't make a decision too early. There would be another way to find the true happiness. We'll be able to find it by reflecting thoroughly.'
What a crazy ego division it is. isn’t? It makes me tired but, it's definitely more productive than former behaviors I did. I won't lie to myself and people around me. Because I know I can lie in verbally but can't change the situation I desired.
March 26th, 2018
11:24PM
